Searching For Me

"God called the man saying to him, 'Where are you?'" - Genesis 3:9

While still feeling caught up in the struggle between my feeling like I should hide from God because I have been sinful and knowing God still loves me because He is merciful, I put on EWTN this morning and heard Father Pacwa speaking about scripture. I was so moved and inspired because Father Pacwa was talking about when Archbishop Fulton Sheen said that the overall theme of the bible isn't about man's search for God, but God's search for man. Adam and Eve hid from God when they ate the apple and God had to look for them. Moses wasn't looking for God when He appeared to him. Moses was looking for sheep on that mountain. Jonah hid from God until he was swallowed by the whale. Not even the disciples were looking for Jesus. He was the one that told all those fishermen and tax collectors to follow Him.

And then I thought of the book of Hosea, a prophet who was instructed by God to marry a prostitute. Upon falling in love with her and her having cheated on Hosea countless times, God told him that He feels the same way about us… we cheat on Him, preoccupy ourselves with other things, forget Him, yet God, like Hosea, is always calling us, waiting for us to go back to Him. This has made the bible even more meaningful to me, because it is full of people who, like me, have fallen and made so many mistakes, but God picks them up each time, redeems them and tells them He loves them. How could He be mad at me if He's always looking to have me close?

Today's Prayer:
My Lord, You surprise me with Your love. I don't deserve it but You choose to still care for me and protect me. Let me be clay in Your hands so that You can finally mold me into a vessel of Your choice, pleasing to You in all things. In Jesus' Name we pray, amen.