Be Still

"Be still, know that I am God." - Psalm 46:11

My nerves were shot today. Anyone that knows me well knows that when it's time to be somewhere and I'm even a minute late, I start freaking out. As you already know, I have my ministry classes on Wednesdays and since I work in the city, I have to make the 6:35 train to be at my station by 7:10 and in class by 7:30. So I had this big $100K proposal to hand in end of day for a television network. I get it done by 11am and email it off to my boss for revisions and for final approval. After asking him about it, guess what time he comes over to talk? At 6pm! 10 minutes before I have to be out the door. Just giving me all the copy points to revise took 25 minutes and I'm sitting there sooo nervous and so upset I wanted to cry! These classes are so important to me and I was about to miss it. I ended up finishing the document and sending it out at 7:15 and then I dashed to Penn Station to take the 7:54 to my stop. For the whole train ride I was nervous and playing with my nails, my nervous trait. Class ends at 9:30 so when I got to my car at 8:30 I sped over to the church where the classes are held. I was even nervous about walking in so late and having missed something important or having my teacher yell at me but nothing happened. She kindly reviewed with me what I had missed. To end class we always meditate on the Lord and when I closed my eyes and allowed my nerves to calm down, my body to relax and my soul to connect to God, I thought of these words, "Be still, know that I am God."

Our lives are always a mad dash. We run from one place to another and hardly ever have a moment to relax and just reflect. This is especially true when we're in a bind and freaking out about something. I forgot to trust God today. I forgot that He commands time and sets all things in motion so if He allowed for me to be late to class, He would make all things good for me. I freaked out and got upset, as if I could do anything to make things right myself…only He can do that. He taught me today that no matter how bad things seem or the pressure coming down on me, I only need to be still, He is God and He is in control.

Today's Prayer:
Lord God, I'm sorry for the times I make the mistake of thinking I could actually control things or that by worrying, I can actually affect something and I can't. Only You matter and only You are all powerful. Help me to strengthen my trust in You during this journey. In Your Name we pray, amen.